Dear God,
I am quickly approaching one of the most monumental moments of my life, becoming a mother. You wouldn’t have blessed us with this incredible little human being if you didn’t think I was up to the task. But your confidence in me doesn’t make this any less scary.
I sit up at night and wonder if I am enough. Will I be able to give this little girl everything she needs? Will I have the energy to give her what she deserves? Is my faith evident enough in my everyday life to impact her to have a strong faith in You as well? Can I discipline her to be respectful to others, yet love her enough to give her grace when she most needs it?
And what happens when I fall short? What happens when I mess up so terribly that I think she might not recover from my mistakes as a mother? What then?
I know you have a plan for all of this, and that my doubts are foolish, but I can’t do this without you, Lord. So I ask this of You. Please show me how to give my daughter grace, even when I wan’t to snap. Show me how to love her unconditionally, even when she tells me she hates me during her teenage years. Help me to hold her close, but also let her blaze her own trail when she’s ready.
And lastly, Lord, please give me grace. Help me to not beat myself up when my infant daughter rolls off the couch. Or when I totally forget about her kindergarten field trip and don’t pack her a sack lunch. Help me to see that it’s okay to feed her mac n’ cheese, because I’m just too tired to make lunch. And help me to have the right words when she asks the tough questions- questions that I don’t know the answers to myself.
Lord, I trust you in all of these things. Amen.
